Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Hold On Hope



This may not be as much of a creative or entertaining entry as much as it is a technical, straightforward one.

There is a glimmer of hope on the horizon and I will take them wherever and whenever I can get them.

There are very few things that put smiles on my face regarding my pancreas (mainly supportive wife and friends and Vicodin which make life more tolerable As many of you may remember, I have had several procedures done in the diagnostic and analytical aspects of my disease. I have had a CT, Ultrasound, Endoscopy, and Nuclear Gallbladder Scan to name a few. But the most important one, in my opinion, is one called an Endoscopic Ultrasound (or EUS as it’s more commonly known).  For the unfamiliar, it involves putting a camera, with an ultrasound monitor attached, down my throat to look around inside my abdominal area. The reason this procedure is good is because the pancreas is buried near the back behind the stomach et al.  This allows a more introspective look at Biff in all his painful glory. 

Praise be to all; the clueless VA doctor has actually okayed the procedure, in order to take a look at things to see why my pancreatitis pain and general health, has worsened over the past few months. The procedure is outpatient and not very risky at all and it was recommended by my previous and much more trusty gastroenterologist, to have at least one a year for that express purpose. This is definitely a step in the right direction in my eyes towards instilling confidence but I still want my other doctor back. Those who have been with me for a bit may know the importance of this and it makes me more comfortable having these things done.

What this means is my life just got much busier. In the 19 days I will have:

1.      A pre-hearing conference with my disability attorney regarding my hearing

2.      If my wife, hopefully, or another friend if not, can get the time off then I will the procedure one week later.

3.      Then the hearing itself one week later

4.      Not to mention my homework for both of my classes (20th Century Art History and Criminology)

5.      PR for Let My Mind Flash With Blades and auditions for the 10-minute play festival as well as rehearsals for the play that I am coming out self-imposed retirement to return to the director’s chair.


Stress usually has a bad effect on my health in general but these are all good kinds of stress so I should be okay. Plus there is then a slim chance that Thor (a celiac plexus nerve block that I have had 3 times in the past) could be resurrected.

This whole experience has been harrowing and frustrated at times so I cling onto any glimmers of hope that arise in regards to it. So fingers crossed that all of these things will result in positive outputs; something that help with my morale and mental as well as direct effects on Biff himself.  Also it may help my disability claim depending on the results.  And on another note, I would like to once again thank my friends one and all for your concern and support in all of this. Onward and upward I hope and as usual, thanks for putting up with my rants and taking the time to tolerate my ramblings. Peace, love and carrots to one and all.

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